These past 9 months have flown by. My pregnancy with Grace went a lot slower. I was just so busy this time around, I haven't even gotten a chance to get ready for Manny to come! I just graduated from nursing school, we just bought a house, and I am working nights. Busy BUSY! But I only have three weeks to go! INSANE! We close on our house on May 29th, and Manny is due on June 2nd. I wonder if he will wait?
These last days really makes me think about the fact that it won't be just us three anymore. Grace won't be the only child! She is centered around everything in my life. She is my first and last thought of every day. She is why I work so hard. She is my everything! And it's about to change. I know I will love Manny just as much as I love Grace, but it's hard to imagine I could love something else as much as I love her. She is such a joy. Yesterday, we were laying down to take a nap. I had just passed nursing school. We were nose to nose and she threw her little arm around my neck and said "Good job Mommy!". She melts my heart! I have struggled these past few months, wondering if I am the Mom she deserves. With school and working nights, I feel like I am absent Mommy. I just hope she knows that I do all this for her. I hope she doesn't remember the days that I had to sleep, or study. I try to take advantage of every moment I have with her.
Everything is about to change. I'm becoming a nurse. A mother of two. And a homeowner! Oh...and I can't forget about my new mini-van! Love it!
I can't wait to make our new house a home. Our very own space. So much to celebrate and even more to be thankful for.
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
Friday, January 16, 2015
IT'S A BOY!
20 weeks couldn't have come soon enough! I absolutley couldn't wait to know what we were having! I honestly thought we would be welcoming another girl. But BOY OH BOY! And I am so happy. Especially for Mark. The week before we found out, Mark was having a tea party with Grace. He told me it was a lot of fun, but he was really hoping for a boy to play with too! Our gender reveal party was exciting and completely hilarious. I tricked everyone into thinking we were having twins. In the moment of shock, no one even noticed the blue silly string that was being sprayed everywhere! I think my dad is still confused! It was hilarious!
Grace wanted a boy all along. Whenever anyone asked her what she wanted, she would say "Brother!". (It could have been all the coaching from dad!)
I'm starting to feel the affects of my growing belly. I think I need to retire my non-maternity pants because they are pressing ever too tightly on my stomach. And my back is starting to ache.
I've been trying to be better this time around with exercising. I want to stay active and I do NOT want to gain as much weight as I did last time around.
I'm also starting to feel my little boy kick. The ultrasound tech told me that my placenta is tipped a bit forward, so feeling the baby move may not be as easy. I think I felt Grace a lot sooner than I felt this one.
Sometimes the hustle and bustle of nursing school keeps my mind off of this pregnancy, so I have to remind myself to take a moment to enjoy my growing baby. This will most likely be the last, so I want to cherish every moment. I also want to cherish every last moment with Grace. We only have 4 more short months with just the three of us! That brings me to tears when I think about it. But I know this baby will only make our little family even closer.
Grace wanted a boy all along. Whenever anyone asked her what she wanted, she would say "Brother!". (It could have been all the coaching from dad!)
I'm starting to feel the affects of my growing belly. I think I need to retire my non-maternity pants because they are pressing ever too tightly on my stomach. And my back is starting to ache.
I've been trying to be better this time around with exercising. I want to stay active and I do NOT want to gain as much weight as I did last time around.
I'm also starting to feel my little boy kick. The ultrasound tech told me that my placenta is tipped a bit forward, so feeling the baby move may not be as easy. I think I felt Grace a lot sooner than I felt this one.
Sometimes the hustle and bustle of nursing school keeps my mind off of this pregnancy, so I have to remind myself to take a moment to enjoy my growing baby. This will most likely be the last, so I want to cherish every moment. I also want to cherish every last moment with Grace. We only have 4 more short months with just the three of us! That brings me to tears when I think about it. But I know this baby will only make our little family even closer.
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
Baby Bump....more like Baby Mountain
I am now 15 weeks along! Time is going by fast. And my belly is growing even faster. I remember wondering if I'd ever see a bump when I was pregnant with Grace. This time around, I swear, the second I saw that pink line, my belly popped out! I didn't believe the ultrasound tech when she said there was just one baby in there!
I think the time is going by so fast because I have been so busy. Nursing school is a whirlwind. I've never been so stressed out in my entire life! I feel as though I haven't gotten to really enjoy and bask in this pregnancy. I have one more week until winter break. I hope I make it there! Poor Mark is feeling the wrath of my pregnancy hormones mixed with pure panic with school. He is so good to me and I hope to repay him one day! He deserves whatever his little heart desires.
Mark has now taught Grace to point to my belly and say "brother". But then I ask her what she really wants and she says "sister". She lays her head on my belly and listens to the grumbling and thinks it's the baby talking. She is so cute when she hears something! She pops her head up and squeels! I love it. I'm trying to relish every moment I have with her, knowing that our days alone are coming to an end. We will soon be a family of four! Crazy to think that! I never want her to feel jealous. She's my first baby! No one can take that away from us.
Nothing too weird is happening yet. I'm not craving anything specific. Except for Chex Mix. I'm still pretty tired, but I attribute that to my working over-nights twice a week. That's tough. And to Nursing school. I am counting the days to graduation, and I will NEVER look back to these days! And then right after graduation comes BABY! I can't wait to find out what it is! We will find out in a month. Boy or girl, we don't care.
Monday, September 22, 2014
Here we go AGAIN!
Well, would ya look at that! I'm pregnant again! Just found out this morning! Mark doesn't even know!
I peed on the stick and then I walked away and ran around with Grace for a bit. Then I remembered to go look at it again. Grace came with me to give me emotional support....and there was that little pink line! It made me so happy! You see, we weren't too sure about becoming pregnant. We were a bit apprehensive. But with a ke sera sera attitude, we tried. And there you have it! So, I didn't quite know what my reaction would be when I saw that little pink line. Pure happiness! I wasn't scared at all. I knew God has a plan and His plan is perfect. So the journey continues! And I can't wait.
I peed on the stick and then I walked away and ran around with Grace for a bit. Then I remembered to go look at it again. Grace came with me to give me emotional support....and there was that little pink line! It made me so happy! You see, we weren't too sure about becoming pregnant. We were a bit apprehensive. But with a ke sera sera attitude, we tried. And there you have it! So, I didn't quite know what my reaction would be when I saw that little pink line. Pure happiness! I wasn't scared at all. I knew God has a plan and His plan is perfect. So the journey continues! And I can't wait.
Sunday, January 13, 2013
The Journey is Over...and Just Begun!
Well, my jouney TO motherhood is over, but my journey THROUGH motherhood has only just begun!
It's more than I ever could have imagined! I fall in love more and more each day! I'm watching Mark talk to her now, and it melts my heart. Grace is the love of my life, my best friend! We have so much fun everyday. She is growing so fast. She's talking and laughing and sitting up. She's already 10 weeks. I don't want her to grow up! But at the same time, I am so excited to watch her grow and blossom. I can't wait to teach her all I know. I can't wait to act so silly we fall over laughing. I can't wait to chase her around the yard. I can't wait to start new family traditions. We have so much ahead of us and even though our future is unknown, it is bright!
It's more than I ever could have imagined! I fall in love more and more each day! I'm watching Mark talk to her now, and it melts my heart. Grace is the love of my life, my best friend! We have so much fun everyday. She is growing so fast. She's talking and laughing and sitting up. She's already 10 weeks. I don't want her to grow up! But at the same time, I am so excited to watch her grow and blossom. I can't wait to teach her all I know. I can't wait to act so silly we fall over laughing. I can't wait to chase her around the yard. I can't wait to start new family traditions. We have so much ahead of us and even though our future is unknown, it is bright!
Thursday, November 1, 2012
My Birth Story
As I sit here with my new baby daughter on my chest.....(oh brother here come the tears already)....I am blown away by the love that has filled me. I never knew I could love someone so much that I didn't even know. I guess you could say I now believe in love at first sight. The moment she was put in my arms I knew that she was my everything, for the rest of my life. But bringing her into this world was not easy.... here's my story.
Tuesday night I started to get contractions. They weren't bad. But noticeable. By the time the morning came around, they were coming every 15 minutes. I had a Dr appointment so I went in with high hopes! Turns out I was only dilated 2cm and my midwife told me that I was having practice contractions. Bummer. She wasn't quite ready to come! I went home and endured the mild contractions for the rest of the day, feeling anxious. Little did I know, these contractions would seem like a walk in the park compared to what was ahead!
Wednesday night my contractions became more regular. I hadn't slept and knew I was up for another sleepless night. Sleep was impossible with these painful contractions coming every 8-10 minutes. I took a bath, and walked around trying to ease the pain. (again....HA! Walk in the park!)
The contractions were getting closer and closer together and I finally called the midwife. After an hour of my contractions being 4 minutes apart, we decided it was time to get ready to go to the hospital. The pain was unbearable. I thought for sure she would be born within the next couple hours! Now, I don't want to get too graphic but the pain was as if someone was trying to rip me apart from the inside. Think, Bella and her vampire baby literally ripping her apart to get out! I didn't know what to expect with contractions, but this was NOT it. And I was NOT prepared for the hours and hours of what was to come.
Mark washed my hair in the sink (what a sweet heart), we packed up and set out for the hospital at 4:00 am.
We got to the hospital and BAM....the contractions lightened up. Everything slowed down. I got checked in to our comfortable birthing room. My midwife checked me and I was only 3cm! How could that be!? All I could think was, if I had been in pain for this long, and I am only 3cm, how am I going to possibly find the strength to go on? I hadn't slept in two nights. The midwife was concerned that I needed sleep so she offered me morphine to help me sleep while my cervix dilated more. I gladly took it. I now regret it. I am thankful for the sleep it gave me, but I think it slowed things down even more. And it made me feel VERY drunk. I could barely walk and talk! I was completely out of it. Around noon, when it wore off, my midwife came to check on me again and saw I had not progressed. I was not happy with this midwife. I had never met her before. And she wasn't making me feel comfortable at all. She asked me what I wanted to do. HAVE THIS BABY! I wanted to yell! I looked to her for guidance, but the only advice she had was to maybe go home or to start me on Pitocin. Had she not read my Birth Plan? It clearly stated that I did NOT want medication, and she was already offering it to me? I wanted another midwife then and there. Finally at last resort, she offered to break my water. YES! Do it! I said! So she did.....and then the walk in the park was OVER. That was at 1:30 on Thursday afternoon.
The next 8 HOURS were pure HELL. Yes, HELL. The pain was hard and fast and never ending. And the leaking from my water being broken made everything uncomfortable. I was wet all the time, leaking all over the floor. We tried to go for a walk, but as I was dripping down my leg, I suggested we go back to the privacy of my room. And trying to pee was unbearable. I felt like she was going to fall out right then and there. It felt like as I stood up from my bed or toilet, my guts were going to just fall out beneath me. Sorry, that's gross, but that's what it felt like! And I still had a LONG way to go.
A lot of people have back labor. Not me. I had pain shooting down my upper thighs. The pain was so strong, I had Mark push down on them at each contraction to try and relieve the pain. And my legs were shaking uncontrollably due to hormones. The shaking wouldn't stop. It was as if I had hypothermia. So my legs were SO sore.
My midwife came in to check on me. Seeing my agony, she told me to get in the tub. This was a new midwife. One I had met, and liked. Whew! So I got in the tub and remained there for the next two hours until the point I had to get out to begin to push. The warm tub felt "good". If you can call it good. Pain beyond belief. BEYOND BELIEF! Why did no one warn me! Was this NORMAL!? There is no way people go through this! There is no way I will live to see another day! I was calling on Jesus to save me. I was wishing for death. I was begging for help. I was asking for pain relief. I was cursing the next looming contraction. Just kill me now....that's how I honestly felt. I was exhausted. Spent. Gone.
Mark, in the mean time, was amazing. Calmer than I could have expected. Coaching me through each contraction. Telling me to breath. Telling me good job. Talking me out of pain relief, saying this is what I wanted and what I have been preparing for all along. Reassuring me that I could do it. "NO I CAN'T!!! I just CAN'T!!"
People say they get the urge to push. I never got that urge. Push? You're kidding right? The thought of pushing pushed ME over the edge. But the nurse reassured me that soon I would have my baby, but I HAD to push to get her out! NOOOOOOO!!!
I tried every position in the book. Standing, squating, kneeling. Nothing worked. So I got on my back with my back elevated. Mark had one leg and the nurse had the other. This was the only way it was going to work for me. My nurse was amazing. She kept encouraging me even though I was yelling at her. She kept smiling, saying my baby was coming soon, and encouraging me to push harder. I pushed and pushed and pushed AND PUSHED! "Can you see the head yet!?" I asked! The reply I got was not a favorable one. "Not yet, but I was close." You gotta be kidding me! I can't push any harder and if I do, I am going to rip straight open from my butt to my vag! Sorry! No can do!
At this point, I was yelling and grunting...later Mark said I sounded like a 2000 lb bear. And the next day, my throat hurt like I had been at a rock concert all night!
"Just a few more pushes!" "You can do it this time!" "Keep pushing" "Use this contraction to get her out!" I heard all this....but I couldn't wrap my head around what was happening. I HAD to get her out and QUICK or I would die I was sure. So through my exhaustion and heart wrenching agony, I pushed one more time and HARD.
That's when they told me to look down because Mark was about to grab her! And then it was all a blur! Mark had her in his arms and put her right on my belly. She was so warm. She was so slippery! She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I could feel the pulsating umbilical cord connecting my daughter to me. I looked at Mark who looked completely stunned and he kissed me. I did it! But it wasn't over quite yet!
She told me to push again to expel the placenta. Out that came. We got to touch it! It was amazing! I had to get a shot in my anus....yes, anus, to numb me so she could give me two stitches from ripping. Then I had to get a shot in my thigh due to excessive bleeding. Then she had to give me stitches. At this time, my legs were shaking even harder. I told the midwife I hoped she had a steady hand! It felt like my labias were flapping in the wind! (I seriously hope I'm not offending anyone!) Then they were pressing on my belly. OUCH! Then they gave me a catheter to empty my bladder because there was no way in heck I was going to try to pee. If I even tried, out my guts would come, I was sure! It was as if they were beating me up! BACK OFF! I wanted to yell!
But my baby was in my arms. She was blinking up at me. She looked perfect. Perfect skin. Perfect dark hair like her daddy. Perfect long fingers and long fingernails! I couldn't believe how much she looked like her daddy! I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that for 9 months this is who I had been carrying around! She was finally here! In my arms!
The whole experience was amazing. Way worse than I had thought, but still amazing. I am glad I did it. I am glad that ONCE in my life I tried natural child birth. It was my right of passage as a mother. Now I am prepared for anything!
I can't wait to watch our little one grow. Not too fast, I hope! I have so many hopes and dreams for her. And I can't wait to see her personality blossom. I love her more than anything and I love her daddy too. Our little family is complete for now!
Tuesday night I started to get contractions. They weren't bad. But noticeable. By the time the morning came around, they were coming every 15 minutes. I had a Dr appointment so I went in with high hopes! Turns out I was only dilated 2cm and my midwife told me that I was having practice contractions. Bummer. She wasn't quite ready to come! I went home and endured the mild contractions for the rest of the day, feeling anxious. Little did I know, these contractions would seem like a walk in the park compared to what was ahead!
Wednesday night my contractions became more regular. I hadn't slept and knew I was up for another sleepless night. Sleep was impossible with these painful contractions coming every 8-10 minutes. I took a bath, and walked around trying to ease the pain. (again....HA! Walk in the park!)
The contractions were getting closer and closer together and I finally called the midwife. After an hour of my contractions being 4 minutes apart, we decided it was time to get ready to go to the hospital. The pain was unbearable. I thought for sure she would be born within the next couple hours! Now, I don't want to get too graphic but the pain was as if someone was trying to rip me apart from the inside. Think, Bella and her vampire baby literally ripping her apart to get out! I didn't know what to expect with contractions, but this was NOT it. And I was NOT prepared for the hours and hours of what was to come.
Mark washed my hair in the sink (what a sweet heart), we packed up and set out for the hospital at 4:00 am.
We got to the hospital and BAM....the contractions lightened up. Everything slowed down. I got checked in to our comfortable birthing room. My midwife checked me and I was only 3cm! How could that be!? All I could think was, if I had been in pain for this long, and I am only 3cm, how am I going to possibly find the strength to go on? I hadn't slept in two nights. The midwife was concerned that I needed sleep so she offered me morphine to help me sleep while my cervix dilated more. I gladly took it. I now regret it. I am thankful for the sleep it gave me, but I think it slowed things down even more. And it made me feel VERY drunk. I could barely walk and talk! I was completely out of it. Around noon, when it wore off, my midwife came to check on me again and saw I had not progressed. I was not happy with this midwife. I had never met her before. And she wasn't making me feel comfortable at all. She asked me what I wanted to do. HAVE THIS BABY! I wanted to yell! I looked to her for guidance, but the only advice she had was to maybe go home or to start me on Pitocin. Had she not read my Birth Plan? It clearly stated that I did NOT want medication, and she was already offering it to me? I wanted another midwife then and there. Finally at last resort, she offered to break my water. YES! Do it! I said! So she did.....and then the walk in the park was OVER. That was at 1:30 on Thursday afternoon.
The next 8 HOURS were pure HELL. Yes, HELL. The pain was hard and fast and never ending. And the leaking from my water being broken made everything uncomfortable. I was wet all the time, leaking all over the floor. We tried to go for a walk, but as I was dripping down my leg, I suggested we go back to the privacy of my room. And trying to pee was unbearable. I felt like she was going to fall out right then and there. It felt like as I stood up from my bed or toilet, my guts were going to just fall out beneath me. Sorry, that's gross, but that's what it felt like! And I still had a LONG way to go.
A lot of people have back labor. Not me. I had pain shooting down my upper thighs. The pain was so strong, I had Mark push down on them at each contraction to try and relieve the pain. And my legs were shaking uncontrollably due to hormones. The shaking wouldn't stop. It was as if I had hypothermia. So my legs were SO sore.
My midwife came in to check on me. Seeing my agony, she told me to get in the tub. This was a new midwife. One I had met, and liked. Whew! So I got in the tub and remained there for the next two hours until the point I had to get out to begin to push. The warm tub felt "good". If you can call it good. Pain beyond belief. BEYOND BELIEF! Why did no one warn me! Was this NORMAL!? There is no way people go through this! There is no way I will live to see another day! I was calling on Jesus to save me. I was wishing for death. I was begging for help. I was asking for pain relief. I was cursing the next looming contraction. Just kill me now....that's how I honestly felt. I was exhausted. Spent. Gone.
Mark, in the mean time, was amazing. Calmer than I could have expected. Coaching me through each contraction. Telling me to breath. Telling me good job. Talking me out of pain relief, saying this is what I wanted and what I have been preparing for all along. Reassuring me that I could do it. "NO I CAN'T!!! I just CAN'T!!"
People say they get the urge to push. I never got that urge. Push? You're kidding right? The thought of pushing pushed ME over the edge. But the nurse reassured me that soon I would have my baby, but I HAD to push to get her out! NOOOOOOO!!!
I tried every position in the book. Standing, squating, kneeling. Nothing worked. So I got on my back with my back elevated. Mark had one leg and the nurse had the other. This was the only way it was going to work for me. My nurse was amazing. She kept encouraging me even though I was yelling at her. She kept smiling, saying my baby was coming soon, and encouraging me to push harder. I pushed and pushed and pushed AND PUSHED! "Can you see the head yet!?" I asked! The reply I got was not a favorable one. "Not yet, but I was close." You gotta be kidding me! I can't push any harder and if I do, I am going to rip straight open from my butt to my vag! Sorry! No can do!
At this point, I was yelling and grunting...later Mark said I sounded like a 2000 lb bear. And the next day, my throat hurt like I had been at a rock concert all night!
"Just a few more pushes!" "You can do it this time!" "Keep pushing" "Use this contraction to get her out!" I heard all this....but I couldn't wrap my head around what was happening. I HAD to get her out and QUICK or I would die I was sure. So through my exhaustion and heart wrenching agony, I pushed one more time and HARD.
That's when they told me to look down because Mark was about to grab her! And then it was all a blur! Mark had her in his arms and put her right on my belly. She was so warm. She was so slippery! She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I could feel the pulsating umbilical cord connecting my daughter to me. I looked at Mark who looked completely stunned and he kissed me. I did it! But it wasn't over quite yet!
She told me to push again to expel the placenta. Out that came. We got to touch it! It was amazing! I had to get a shot in my anus....yes, anus, to numb me so she could give me two stitches from ripping. Then I had to get a shot in my thigh due to excessive bleeding. Then she had to give me stitches. At this time, my legs were shaking even harder. I told the midwife I hoped she had a steady hand! It felt like my labias were flapping in the wind! (I seriously hope I'm not offending anyone!) Then they were pressing on my belly. OUCH! Then they gave me a catheter to empty my bladder because there was no way in heck I was going to try to pee. If I even tried, out my guts would come, I was sure! It was as if they were beating me up! BACK OFF! I wanted to yell!
But my baby was in my arms. She was blinking up at me. She looked perfect. Perfect skin. Perfect dark hair like her daddy. Perfect long fingers and long fingernails! I couldn't believe how much she looked like her daddy! I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that for 9 months this is who I had been carrying around! She was finally here! In my arms!
The whole experience was amazing. Way worse than I had thought, but still amazing. I am glad I did it. I am glad that ONCE in my life I tried natural child birth. It was my right of passage as a mother. Now I am prepared for anything!
I can't wait to watch our little one grow. Not too fast, I hope! I have so many hopes and dreams for her. And I can't wait to see her personality blossom. I love her more than anything and I love her daddy too. Our little family is complete for now!
Saturday, October 20, 2012
ONE WEEK LEFT!!
I can't believe I am AT THE FINISH LINE! One week from today is the big day! Of course I'm crossing my fingers that it will be sooner, but she will come when she is good and ready. And of course I'd love for my mom to be there when it happens, so hopefully I can practice my patience this week! Although I have been trying every trick in the book to get things moving down there! I've drank raspberry leaf tea, I ate eggplant, had sex, eaten spicy food to the point of sweating, walked hills, done yoga, and even danced to "I'm coming out", but nothing seems to work! So I guess she is comfy and will come when she's ready! In the meantime, we are getting everything ready for her! Her nursery is set! The hospital bags are packed! Time to enjoy our last few days together before everything changes. FOREVER!!
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Do Men Have A Clue?
I honestly don't think Mark has a smidgen of a clue what women go through during pregnancy! Poor guy, but COME ON! Let me start out by saying that he has been the greatest hubby during this whole thing and so supportive and loving. But sometimes, like tonight, I just wanna SLAP him (with love of course!?!)! I just wish he would SEE that dirty dish he left on the counter for two days! Doesn't he noticed that huge ball of hair on the floor that he just walked over!? You want me to do a load of laundry RIGHT NOW? At this hour? Are you seriously complaining about this small list of things I want you to get done by the weekend!? I JUST mopped the floor and your wearing your work boots in here!? We are having a baby any day now! I need HELP!
I was looking for something tonight and he was helping me look. Since I can't bend over to look under the bed, etc. After looking all over the bedroom he finally snapped at me and then I started crying of course! Then the tears wouldn't stop and they just came even harder! "This is SO HARD!" I wailed! He just kept telling me in a calm voice to "Relax! Think about things that make you happy!" "NOTHING makes me happy!" I kept wailing! As he stroked my arm and looked at me like I was having a mental breakdown (once again), I realized that maybe he doesn't have a clue, but how could he! How could any man understand these surges of hormones that come when we least expect them and take over our fat, bloated, stretched out bodies!? Poor Mark! I must be such a pain to be around lately! But I simply CAN NOT help it! This IS SO HARD! No one can prepare you for what you feel during these last weeks. And no one can prepare a husband to know how to deal with a pregnant wife! So I think we are doing the best we can! We may have our moments when we want to rip each other's hair out, but then we realize that this is just a hard time and I am not myself, and soon, VERY SOON we will have our little baby girl in our arms and it will all be worth it!
I was looking for something tonight and he was helping me look. Since I can't bend over to look under the bed, etc. After looking all over the bedroom he finally snapped at me and then I started crying of course! Then the tears wouldn't stop and they just came even harder! "This is SO HARD!" I wailed! He just kept telling me in a calm voice to "Relax! Think about things that make you happy!" "NOTHING makes me happy!" I kept wailing! As he stroked my arm and looked at me like I was having a mental breakdown (once again), I realized that maybe he doesn't have a clue, but how could he! How could any man understand these surges of hormones that come when we least expect them and take over our fat, bloated, stretched out bodies!? Poor Mark! I must be such a pain to be around lately! But I simply CAN NOT help it! This IS SO HARD! No one can prepare you for what you feel during these last weeks. And no one can prepare a husband to know how to deal with a pregnant wife! So I think we are doing the best we can! We may have our moments when we want to rip each other's hair out, but then we realize that this is just a hard time and I am not myself, and soon, VERY SOON we will have our little baby girl in our arms and it will all be worth it!
Monday, October 8, 2012
The Weird Things About Pregnancy!
I wanted to jot down some of the weird and unexpected things that I went through during this pregnancy. Things that most people never even think about, or take advantage of! Where do I start?
~You go through A LOT of toilet paper. I spend the majority of my day (and night) on the toilet!
~Speaking about going through things.....underwear. At least two pair a day (sorry for the details).
~It's really hard to do the dishes with a big belly in the way! I almost always walk away with a wet shirt!
~Socks....SO hard to put on! And even harder to take off. And don't get me started on shoes. Anything other than slippers and you can call that my workout for the day!
~"I'm going to shave my legs. See you in 2 hours!" Yeah, it's that hard.
~I can't see my own whoo-ha......don't really ever think about that one do ya? Well, "outta sight, outta mind" does NOT apply here!
~Never park on a hill....you might as well call AAA to help get you out of the car!
~Humidity=Hell on earth.
~NEVER sit down before locating the remote.
~Trying things on in a fitting room is NOT fun. Whoever designed those mirrors and lights should be stoned to death.
~Insomnia isn't a joke! Every night I wake up at 4:00 am......and stay awake! Thank God for Dice and Words with Friends (and my Maui friends who are still awake at those hours!)
~I may have gotten ten new cavities due to eating Tums all day, but I DON'T CARE. They saved my life!
~Nesting is REAL. Just ask my over-worked and under-paid vacuum. She is getting quite the workout!
That's all I can think of right now (which brings up another one....I can't think. Don't expect me to remember anything these days!). I do have to say I have had a pretty easy pregnancy. But even saying that, I did not really enjoy it! I don't understand those women (Tanya) who loved being pregnant! I just feel like a fire-breathing whale!
~You go through A LOT of toilet paper. I spend the majority of my day (and night) on the toilet!
~Speaking about going through things.....underwear. At least two pair a day (sorry for the details).
~It's really hard to do the dishes with a big belly in the way! I almost always walk away with a wet shirt!
~Socks....SO hard to put on! And even harder to take off. And don't get me started on shoes. Anything other than slippers and you can call that my workout for the day!
~"I'm going to shave my legs. See you in 2 hours!" Yeah, it's that hard.
~I can't see my own whoo-ha......don't really ever think about that one do ya? Well, "outta sight, outta mind" does NOT apply here!
~Never park on a hill....you might as well call AAA to help get you out of the car!
~Humidity=Hell on earth.
~NEVER sit down before locating the remote.
~Trying things on in a fitting room is NOT fun. Whoever designed those mirrors and lights should be stoned to death.
~Insomnia isn't a joke! Every night I wake up at 4:00 am......and stay awake! Thank God for Dice and Words with Friends (and my Maui friends who are still awake at those hours!)
~I may have gotten ten new cavities due to eating Tums all day, but I DON'T CARE. They saved my life!
~Nesting is REAL. Just ask my over-worked and under-paid vacuum. She is getting quite the workout!
That's all I can think of right now (which brings up another one....I can't think. Don't expect me to remember anything these days!). I do have to say I have had a pretty easy pregnancy. But even saying that, I did not really enjoy it! I don't understand those women (Tanya) who loved being pregnant! I just feel like a fire-breathing whale!
The Countdown!
Three more weeks to go! I can't believe it! 9 months sure went fast! Although, I'm sure if you were to ask me 5 months ago, the time was creeping by then.
She could really come any day now! And we are ready for her! We just had a conversation about these last few weeks being the last time it will be just "me and Mark". I asked Mark if there were any feelings of "I wish we had done this, or that" or if he was sad it would never be just him and I EVER again. He said he thought we had done so much already. More than most people ever get to do in a lifetime, and our life isn't nearly over yet. I think he got it spot on! Our next adventure is just beginning! And we are both so excited!
She could really come any day now! And we are ready for her! We just had a conversation about these last few weeks being the last time it will be just "me and Mark". I asked Mark if there were any feelings of "I wish we had done this, or that" or if he was sad it would never be just him and I EVER again. He said he thought we had done so much already. More than most people ever get to do in a lifetime, and our life isn't nearly over yet. I think he got it spot on! Our next adventure is just beginning! And we are both so excited!
Sunday, September 16, 2012
What's In A Name?
We still don't have a name yet! What the heck! I made a list of names we kind-of like....but the list is long and nothing is really jumping out at me! How is it that I've gone through life without a name in mind! Isn't that what girls do? Plan their wedding days and baby names before age 12? I guess I wasn't that type! So as of now, the list comes with us to the hospital and we play eenie-meenie? Oh boy! Maybe not the BEST plan!
We have SIX WEEKS left until the big day! I can't even believe how fast the time is flying by! I don't feel quite prepared yet. I haven't packed the hospital bag. Haven't written our birth plan. Mark hasn't read the ONE book I asked him to! The house hasn't been deep cleaned (although I am going through some nesting/organizing spouts!). I don't have any diapers.
I guess we better GET ready, because here she comes!!
We have SIX WEEKS left until the big day! I can't even believe how fast the time is flying by! I don't feel quite prepared yet. I haven't packed the hospital bag. Haven't written our birth plan. Mark hasn't read the ONE book I asked him to! The house hasn't been deep cleaned (although I am going through some nesting/organizing spouts!). I don't have any diapers.
I guess we better GET ready, because here she comes!!
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Monday, August 20, 2012
On The Bright Side...
We are having SO much fun feeling her move around inside of me! It's such a crazy experience. No words can even really explain it....and I'm sure it's hard to imagine unless you've experienced it yourself! We always try to guess if it was her butt, her head, or maybe a hand that moves across my belly! And with Mark's hand on my belly, you can see it rise and fall as she dances around in there! We sit there for a while with no movement, and then "WHOA!", we feel her move BIG time! I like to think she reacts more when daddy has his hand on my belly! Mark can't get over the fact that we are actually feeling a human baby, growing inside me! Mind boggling! She better move around a lot right now, because it's about to get a lot smaller in there for her! She's about to have a big growth spurt over the next month!
Blastid Relaxin!
So...due to the excessive amount of the hormone relaxin floating around in my pregnant body, my joints and bones tend to be uncooperative! At the moment, (and for the past week and a half) I have had a rib out of place, which is causing excruciating pain! And the only way to get relief is to lay down....which then causes other pain, such as hip pain and this awful tingling pain in my chest! So REALLY, there IS no relief! I've been going to the chiropractor each week (sometimes twice a week), but due to the relaxin (causing my cartilage to turn to jelly) the rib simply won't stay in its place! DARN RIB! Anyway, it's all I can think about. It's like someone is literally stabbing me in the back! OUCH!!
And it keeps me in bed, which is not good. I want to be up and doing stuff, but the pain keeps me from it.
So....Dear Rib, please go back into place and LEAVE ME ALONE! Thanks!
Yours truly,
TICKED OFF, PREGNANT Brianne
And it keeps me in bed, which is not good. I want to be up and doing stuff, but the pain keeps me from it.
So....Dear Rib, please go back into place and LEAVE ME ALONE! Thanks!
Yours truly,
TICKED OFF, PREGNANT Brianne
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Education Station
It's time to read up and GET READY!! The time is coming and I feel too unprepared. I got a few books about natural birthing and so far they are great! Mark is even reading a Daddy book as I type this! He wants to feel prepared too!
The book I am reading right now is called HypnoBirthing, the Mongan Method. (No, it's not about giving birth while you are hypnotized....I'm not THAT hippy!) So far, it has taught me that my body is perfectly made. Made to give birth. And works in harmony with my mind. And that when my mind is free and clear of fear and tension, my body will function as it was created by God to do. When fear is not present, pain is not present. And in the absence of fear, my muscles will relax and become pliable and my cervix will naturally thin and open. The book is teaching me to identify my feelings of fear, meet them head-on, and release them! That way they cannot resurface during the birthing. Fear is the enemy of the birthing room! I truly believe that I can do this! I can remain calm and collected, with Mark by my side coaching me through it. I refuse to believe that my birthing process has to be painful suffering. I don't want to bring our little girl into a world of negative energy. She will be born into a peaceful, loving, caring, and happy environment!
Enough hippy talk, right!
We've decided that we aren't going to take a Birth Preparation class. For one, they are too expensive. And for two, a lot of the information provided, I don't feel we need. They show videos of mothers giving birth, and talk about the medications available to you. I don't want any images of mothers giving birth in my head, when I am trying to be calm and peaceful during my birthing process. And I don't want to hear about any medications available, because I don't need any of those either! I think the books will prepare us just fine. And the advice from all my new mommy friends out there is helping SO much too! Many of my closest friends have been giving me great advice, and they have put my mind at ease in many ways! :)
The book I am reading right now is called HypnoBirthing, the Mongan Method. (No, it's not about giving birth while you are hypnotized....I'm not THAT hippy!) So far, it has taught me that my body is perfectly made. Made to give birth. And works in harmony with my mind. And that when my mind is free and clear of fear and tension, my body will function as it was created by God to do. When fear is not present, pain is not present. And in the absence of fear, my muscles will relax and become pliable and my cervix will naturally thin and open. The book is teaching me to identify my feelings of fear, meet them head-on, and release them! That way they cannot resurface during the birthing. Fear is the enemy of the birthing room! I truly believe that I can do this! I can remain calm and collected, with Mark by my side coaching me through it. I refuse to believe that my birthing process has to be painful suffering. I don't want to bring our little girl into a world of negative energy. She will be born into a peaceful, loving, caring, and happy environment!
Enough hippy talk, right!
Saturday, August 4, 2012
Vacation Time!
We just got back from our Goodmanson family reunion at the Tetons National Park! It was a blast! The mountains are so beautiful, they look like a computer screen saver! Mark had a lot of fun hiking up to Amphitheater Lake. I don't think I could have made it! Walking up stairs is tough enough for me these days! Instead, I took all the kids on a short hike to a gorgeous waterfall across Jenny Lake.
My belly is getting SO big! T-shirts I was able to wear last week, now reveal my belly at the bottom! Uffda! And every maternity shirt I have has a stain on it! Apparently eating is a challenge to me too! I can't eat without spilling on my big protruding belly! Maybe if I slowed down a bit!?
Mom and Dad are in Denver for a few days with us! We have been working hard on the nursery! Mom is a genius and has turned a plain room into a gorgeous nursery fit for a princess! I can't wait to show our little girl! I'm sure she will LOVE it! I've been going in there just to look around and dream! I'll post some pics!
My belly is getting SO big! T-shirts I was able to wear last week, now reveal my belly at the bottom! Uffda! And every maternity shirt I have has a stain on it! Apparently eating is a challenge to me too! I can't eat without spilling on my big protruding belly! Maybe if I slowed down a bit!?
Mom and Dad are in Denver for a few days with us! We have been working hard on the nursery! Mom is a genius and has turned a plain room into a gorgeous nursery fit for a princess! I can't wait to show our little girl! I'm sure she will LOVE it! I've been going in there just to look around and dream! I'll post some pics!
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